Episode 48: My Online Split-Personality


Last time, I talked about my new outgoing image on PlayStation Home, which got me thinking about how different I actually act when I play online games and how I portray myself when I write these things. I know I’m not really like this. In fact, truth to be told, I’m really very shy and introverted. Yet, why do I feel more confident when I’m hiding behind a monitor, away from real people?

I guess I’m not the only one. I have a feeling that all of the boisterous trolls and griefers on the Internet aren’t that outspoken in real life. I bet all of the people who post racists and sexist comments on message boards are really timid, little people who don’t have the guts to speak out these thoughts out in their everyday life. So, why? Why does it seem that Mr. Hyde comes out when we’re online yet we’re so Dr. Jekyll in our everyday lives?

Never played it. But I heard it's bad!

Never played it. But I heard it’s bad!

Actually, I didn’t have to think real hard as to why. But it’s hard to put into words… but I’ll try my best. Here goes…

We all act differently online because we think we can do it without any repercussions. Yes, while this may not be totally true, it does feel like it. We can be brave and actually put out a personality we want to have but are too scared to do in real life. Like I said before, in PlayStation Home, I’m trying to act more sexy, wearing revealing outfits, trying (badly) to flirt with other players and be generally witty.

In real life, I wouldn’t say I’m bad looking. I’m just… waif-ish? I’m actually 5′ 7″ and 112 pounds so I’m pretty skinny. I’m also pretty pale; I can’t seem to get a tan because I get sunburn really fast! But I do like going to the beach. I just have to cover myself up with a big hat and make sure my body is covered in sunscreen. So, unlike my online avatar, you’d never catch me by the sea in a skimpy two piece number because that’d be too unrealistic (and painful) for me. But that doesn’t mean I don’t want to!

Never in a million years!

Never in a million years!

I’m also pretty conservative. I wasn’t allowed to date anyone until I was 16 years old. And I never really had the confidence to go against the rules. I was raised to obey like a sheep I guess? Thanks, mom and dad! But, in all seriousness, I really can’t envision myself performing the things that I do online. Like expressing my thoughts for everyone to see! If you actually noticed, I never really reveal anything too deeply personal about myself in any of the things that I write about! That’s for my own protection, for one thing (stalkers are bad!). But, mostly, it’s because I’m deeply introverted.

Which is all fine by me. It’s this want to be more extroverted that got me into actually writing here. I never really imagined that I would go online and meet new people or express my ideas in any shape or form if it would all point back at me. So, while it may seem like “lying” to some people to not reveal your “real” self, I think it’s more like selecting the thing you wish the world to see and having that displayed to everyone.

Whew! Well, now that’s all done, you can actually friend me on PSN (robinsadventures) or, better yet, follow me here! I’d really like that! At least, my online self would really appreciate it!

Aww! Aren't I the cutest lil' thing?

Aww! Aren’t I the cutest lil’ thing?

While I’m on the subject, I’d like to talk about my favorite online games! That’ll be next week! See you then!


Do you change your attitude when you’re online? Why or why not? Post your answers in the comments section below!

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